Took one and a half tablets reasonably same time. Need to look at car. Legs tired from yesterday.
Am I going to get tetchy again?
Pharmacist said not to mix and match.
Still quite spaced out sometimes, not particularly motivated.
Category Archives: Treaments
7.5mg methylphenidate at 4.30pm
Suicide Watch
Last night I had someone break down and start crying on the phone. She repeated that she wAnted to die . I think the main problem is that she has withdrawn from a lot of medication quite quickly; ADD mess as well as antianxiety drugs and the usual gamut of drugs that lot of Americans seem to take…in my experience they are either obsessed by wholefoods and wont even take a paracetamol or pill-munching.
My friend on the phone does have a realistic attitude but now no longer has health insurance so even the ADD stuff by itself is expensive.
I will finish this when I’ve had some sleep and recovered.
Posted in ADD, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, Relationships, Socialising, Stressors, Symptoms, Treaments
Mental Health Hotline
Bloody answering machine.
Left message with absolute confidence I will not receive a call back..
This is the 0203 313 5661
Posted in ADD, anxiety, Portrayals of Mental health, Stressors, Treaments
Tagged Mental Health Hotline, NHS
Business and stress
Today the business which has been faltering got a hammer blow. This is a relief in a way because I have been trying to find a way out. It’s been tempting because I don’t have new job enterprise to go to apart from back to graphics.
I’ve realised a few things in the wake of this failure. Maybe I should have got out earlier and this would have left me richer! However the business I was managing provided a regular income and the possibilityof me taking it over properly. It’s difficult to get a perspective and those you confide in often have a far better insight. You think they haven’t grasped the complexities but you don’t need complexities to see if something is a ‘yay!’ or a ‘nay!’
I blame myself for some things that went wrong but in reality it was a pretty impossible situation. If I had taken over the business earlier with a company of my own then I would be facing mega responsibilities of premises, leases etc.
I can no longer carry on without trying medication for ADD. Many of my shortcomings running the business were directly attributable to ADD (Unable to complete paperwork, procrastination, poor follow-through) would I have been able to make it succeed if I had been able to concentrate more, to focus, to plan?
There is something that I read on an ADD forum recently that convinces me that I can no longer carry on without trying the ‘meds’ route. I’m not going to find a magic way of organising things – the ADD Holy Grail – that will just be revealed and make it all just so…
Many people with ADD / ADHD have difficulty with working memory. They may have difficulty with recall, focusing, organization, and distinguishing between important and unimportant cues. They may distract easily, become forgetful, or have difficulty getting started on tasks. Lengthy multiple step directions are often frustrating and impossible to follow.
From http://add.about.com/od/researchstudies/a/workingmemory.htm
Spark! Exercise for anxiety depression and ADD
if you have ADD and have a penchant for going into narratives instead of getting to the point,
Yes, that rings a bell! From a review on Amazon for
The Disorganized Mind: Coaching Your ADHD Brain to Take Control of Your Time, Tasks, and Talents
Posted in ADD, Book reviews etc, Treaments
I’m getting better…
It seems I’m improving, hence the lack of recent posts. I still have the occasional bad moment – in fact I had one today – but I can stave off the panic attacks and assure myself that i will be OK.
Distraction seems to be the larger part of this. I felt really rough earlier and thought I was heading for a migraine as I had some visual problems (probably as a result of staring at a small laptop screen for so long). thought I was going cross-eyed, brain tumour etc
My sleep hygiene is still lousy but at least it’s stable; i’m getting to sleep at 6am and rising at 1.30pm.
Posted in anxiety, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, panic attacks, Treaments
Tagged panic attacks, sleep hygiene, treatment
Back online – have you missed me?
I’m back online after a blimp with my internet connection. It’s Thursday night already. Had to go to hospital to hav bloods done ready for an appointment with the endocrinologist next week. Actually got some sleep last night (from 3am onwards) so am beginning to reverse the nocturnalism.
Today, after the blood test this morning, I stayed out a lot of the day – including an extended stay in an shop. Managed quite well but was getting a bit ‘spacy’ towards the end. Managed a would-be stressy call to my ISP but was helped by helpful peron on the other end who sorted out my problem. Thank God for the Scottish (Gordon Brown excepted).
To the doctors for a repeat sick note. Another 3 months?! he exclaims. No, I explain , the last one was for 3 months but I’m getting better but I’m not ready to return to work yet. He’s slightly foreign so the nuances get missed sometimes.
I just don’t want to rush it (going back to work), have a relapse and end up worse. This happened to a friend of mine.
The c*** upstairs kept me awake last night ’til I stuffed earplugs. He is truly scum (trust me n this, I will restrospectively blog on this to justify name calling) but it is amazing to me that alcoholics like him don’t drink themselves to death earlier.
Posted in Career, Drinking, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, Treaments, Uncategorized