Well, not MUCH better but not at death’s door.
I am having a bath and reading…
Category Archives: panic attacks
I feel much better now, I really do
Posted in anxiety, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, panic attacks, Relaxation, Symptoms
Panic back or heart attack?
Well, not heart attack maybe but I don’t feel well. I have lain down horizontal twice this evening and both times had heart palpitating feelings.
Don’t feel great. Trying to remember if the panic attacks felt like this.
Posted in anxiety, Input overload, panic attacks, Symptoms
doc Martin and panic attacks
Caught the annoyingly watchable Doc Martin long enough to see the storyline…Doc Martin has a blood phobia and suffers panic attacks at the sight of it… (haemophobia)
Don’t know how realistic is how (would a Dr even start medical training if they had such a phobia? How likely would it be to develop? The fictional Doc was a surgeon)
I did ask an Air stewarsd recently if he’d known any flight staff develop a fear of flying. He knew of one case where a fellow steward NEVER flew on their offtime ie didn’t take advantage of very cheap flights available. When questioned , he was a bit touchy on the subject. And transferred to ground staff.
Still watching…now one of the mother’s is getting an anxiety attack after hearing her son has had an accident. Hyperventilating, calling for water etc…
I don’t remember PAs being portrayed on screen or maybe they just didn’tregister before…
Sunday Panic Attack hangover
I slept for a couple of hours after the PA lastnight but woke at 3am and stayed up.
I was on soneone’s couch so couldnt really sleep. In the am I had the use of a bed but the room was too noisy and bright from the road (why do people have flimsy blinds which let all the light in?).
Anyway I slept til 3 or 4pm nicely rested. Completely against the principles of sleep hygiene…
Went for a nice walk by a canal.
Still have that ‘black cloud hanging at the edges’. The feeling that the blackness is hovering, just waiting to pounce and that anything might bring it on.
I’m still under stress from business worries and responsibility.
Posted in anxiety, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, panic attacks, Relaxation
Tagged anxiety, anxiety attack, highstrung, mental health, panic attacks, sleep hygiene
Travel terror
I am visiting relatives. I have put this off twice (why can’t they visit ME?)
I don’t like traveling but this has been made far worse because of various other factors; I am feeling ‘fragile’ at the moment. Tiredness; I didn’t get any sleep last night.
The usual stress revolves around
- what if I have a panic attack on the train’
- what if I have a panic attack there and want to come home immediately?’
I don’t sleep the night before of course. All my onling friends desert me. Eventually at 6 or 7am I fall asleep. I have to be leaving at 1.30 and set the alarm for 12.15
The train is packed. I sit in a reserved seat expecting to be ousted at any second.
The spaced-outedness (not in a nice way a stressed, confused way) will hopefully ease when I have a proper sleep.
Posted in anxiety, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, panic attacks, Symptoms
Am I recovered enough to have a normal life ie get a normal job? My sleep pattern is still all over the place; I try to ‘reset’ it every so often but I easily fall out of it again. I always make sure I get as much sleep as possible as it’s a risk factor for panic attacks and anxiety/mental illness generally.
I’m considering how much the GF is a negative influence. Lately, she has been pulling stunts and having the usual moody tantrums that I’m getting sick of. She threw out some personal items of mine recently without permission despite me repeatedly stressing that she should not do this without my say-so. A friend of mine has a similar situation.
Posted in anxiety, Career, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, panic attacks, Relationships
Girlfriend swap
As I reported 2 weeks ago , I am getting better. However, I still have my moments, usually when tired or when stressed or both. planned aday out with GF on Sunday. Didn’t have that much sleep , maybe 5 hours. Have been staying over at her flat as it’s like a mini-reak from mine. However, it is also small, claustrophobic and has ‘annoyances’ including her mean behaviour. This included refusing to top up her pre-pay gas meter so the flat gets cold. She has absolutely no reason to have a pre-pay meter; it was there when she mo0ved in and is unnecesarily expensive as the gas company charges you more for gas with one. She is remarkably concerned with the boiler at her flat whereasn she shows no conbcern at all at mine.
Also, major annoyance – SHE DOESN’T LISTEN. About anything. Maybe if she ‘respected’ me more she would pay attention but half the shit she goes through is a result of her ignoring advice I have given her. eg the room temperature gauge which is her preferred method of controlling the boiler along with turning down any know she can lay her hands on.
My fingers have developed an involuntary twitch so naturally I see this as the first stage of MS (Multiple Scelerosis)
My sleep pattern still has not sorted itself out.
I still get anxiety on or before journeys and got major anxiety about facing a train trip up north (trapped in the train for 2 hours each way with the inevitable delay)
Posted in anxiety, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, panic attacks, Relationships
I’m getting better…
It seems I’m improving, hence the lack of recent posts. I still have the occasional bad moment – in fact I had one today – but I can stave off the panic attacks and assure myself that i will be OK.
Distraction seems to be the larger part of this. I felt really rough earlier and thought I was heading for a migraine as I had some visual problems (probably as a result of staring at a small laptop screen for so long). thought I was going cross-eyed, brain tumour etc
My sleep hygiene is still lousy but at least it’s stable; i’m getting to sleep at 6am and rising at 1.30pm.
Posted in anxiety, Insomnia/Sleep hygiene, panic attacks, Treaments
Tagged panic attacks, sleep hygiene, treatment