My other blog was here http://my.opera.com/addman but that one didn’t seem to get any visitors either. I like Opera Community and keep other blogs there but I think the whole thing where you have to sign up for an Opera account just to leave a comment is too hassly. Plus it’s not that easy and I find surfers are put off anything that is not immediate. I experimented between keeping a paper journal and a blog. I will probably try to do both, transerring paper thoughts onto here. Ideally I would dictate into software that wrote for me but the last tim eI tried it, the software wasn’t up to it. Perhaps things have improved?
Anyway, today I was just thinking how much I’d improved; no anxiety while just pottering around the flat. I could watch TV without any ’stomach rising’ feelings. I spoke – or thought – too soon. After an argument with the girlfriend O was rewarded with the whole stress reaction. Going into the ‘zone’ where reality seems altered which I recognise as a precursor to a panic/anxiety attack. Normally this feeling would persisit for many hours and not relieve until either I went to sleep or took some medication. However, when I’m in ‘the zone’ I don’t want to take medication as by then I’m paranoid. Valium or Larazepam don’t seem to work particularly fast for me and because I’m often getting worse, I associate those feelings of getting worse with the drug.
Watched Copycat last night which had Sigourney Weaver as a Psychologist suffering from agoraphobia/panic attacks. It was interesting to see the visual disturbances which can accompany panic attacks being portrayed on the screen. There is a review here http://tinyurl.com/3bgdag . (I also didn’t rate Sigourney Weaver until I saw het in a Sci-Fi comedy -I fill in name later!). I think they tried it in Hitchcock’s Vertigo. When I last watched that I didn’t know anything about panic attacks so didn’t pay any attention. In fact I was totally unsympathetic about anxiety/panic attacks/funny turns and the like and just thought people should ‘get a grip’.
