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I want Paul McKenna to cure my fear of flying

July 24, 2009 · Leave a Comment

I like Paul McKenna. He has good taste (I saw him eyeing up my then girlfriend at the Notting Hill Carnival a few years ago.)

Paul McKenna I can change your life  Sky 3 late (2am). Tonight he attempted to cure a woman of her agoraphobia (apparently she’s been alone for only 10 mins total in the last five years). Paul went up to Hull of all places. He must be dedicated. Or they paid him a lot of money. What worked, the NLP or the hypnosis? He does speak very fast and uses a lot of gestures and taps.

NB She had CBT which didn’t work…

Later after he left, the panic came back. How much the original cure was it down to the force of his personality. Interestingly she says ‘Im panicking so I can’t remember all the thing she told me to think about’. She comes down to London for a second session (obviously Paul’s dedication didn’t stretch to another visit to Hull ;) . She ends up cured but still living in Hull so swings and roundabouts really.

Also, he treats a gambler. He explains the Serotonin high due to gambling. He treats this by changing the association for gambling to a negative one. It seems quite simplistic. Reminds one of a weakened version of the treatment in A Clockwork Orange. Rewiring the brain.

Seeing the agoraphobic helps me because I can see that it’s just a condition that needs treating. It’s not something unique to me.

The best for me is the flying phobic who says ‘I just see that as an accident waiting to happen’. That’s just how I feel. I managed a short flight at Christmas but together is the fear of having an attack the other end, being so far from home He is resistant to Paul’ s initial NLP stuff but the hypnosis does it . After an hour he is good to go and flies. Paul McKenna is my new hero. The kind of change he manages in people in such a short space of time is pretty miraculous. I will blog more about his methods later (on this entry) when I have time.

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Lars Von Trier: Fear of flying, depression

July 23, 2009 · Leave a Comment

Lars Von Trier interview: Season in hell

 

Published Date: 12 July 2009

IF Lars von Trier hoped to find salvation in Antichrist, his critics had other ideas. The Dogme director tells James Mottram why chaos still reigns despite overcoming severe depression to try to resurrect his career

LARS von Trier is not a well man. As the sign painted in blood-red lettering on his office door says, “Chaos Reigns”. Jittery, nervous and unsettled, the 53-year-old Dane even jumps when his mobile phone rings midway through our interview.

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And there’s no question that Von Trier has a lot of fear and anxiety. Among his multiple phobias, his fear of flying means every time he makes a pilgrimage to Cannes film festival, he drives for five days from Denmark in a battered old camper van. 

This time, he arrived with the festival’s most talked-about film, Antichrist. Despite Cannes being his spiritual home – he won the Palme d’Or there in 2000 for his musical Dancer In The Dark, starring Björk – the film’s first press screening caused uproar, a mix of jeers and nervous laughter. Billed as Von Trier’s attempt at gothic horror, the film sees Willem Dafoe and Charlotte Gainsbourg retreat to a cabin in the woods to heal their psychological wounds after their young son fell to his death from an open window. What follows is a gruelling odyssey, as Gainsbourg’s unnamed mother becomes increasingly hysterical, turning on her husband – and herself – in a brutal last half-hour. 

In the press kit, in what he called the “director’s confession”, Von Trier dubs Antichrist “the most important film of my entire career”. The reason is quite simple: his depression had left him unable to work. Six months into his illness, he wrote a script as a cathartic exercise – “as a test to see if I would ever make another film”. Still, he was listless, completing the screenplay with little enthusiasm, adding scenes and images – often culled from dreams – with no concern for logic. Dubbing it “a glimpse into the dark world of my imagination, into the nature of my fears”, what spilled out onto the page was anything but pretty. 

Ironically, the end result is one of Von Trier’s most style-conscious films since the days of his early works Europa and The Element Of Crime. Take the bravura opening black-and-white sequence as Dafoe and Gainsbourg copulate in slow motion. It’s a far cry from the back-to-basics aesthetic of his Dogme95 manifesto, when Von Trier (who made 1997’s The Idiots under its so-called Vow of Chastity) urged filmmakers to shoot films on handheld cameras in natural lighting with no special effects. 

Nevertheless, Von Trier, who wanted to merge a documentary-like style with more “monumental” shots, was unhappy with the end results. “I don’t think I really succeeded,” he moans.

The closest we get to a laugh in Antichrist is when a fox – eating its own entrails no less – turns to the camera and repeats Von Trier’s office door slogan, “Chaos Reigns”. “As you know, I work very much from humour,” he says. “And we know that this (a talking fox] is a horror killer, but on the other hand, the fox demanded a line – so what can you do?” 

By the time Von Trier arrived in Cannes – infuriating one Daily Mail journalist in the press conference by refusing to justify the film and instead proclaiming himself “the best director in the world” – chaos did reign. When the film premiered, he left the screening without waiting to receive the applause. “I’m not a stable person,” he shrugs. “I felt quite a lot of hostility in the room, and then a stupid little thing (happened] like a light didn’t go on, and we had to sit there for seven minutes and wait for an endless time. I’m normally a very friendly man but at a certain point I couldn’t take it anymore. Then someone said, ‘People are clapping. If you go, it’s an insult to them.’ And that was enough. I was off!” 

With the film proposing that Gainsbourg’s character is the embodiment of the Antichrist, it once again raises the age-old accusations that Von Trier is a misogynist. Just recall Dogville and Manderlay – the first two parts of his as-yet-incomplete USA trilogy – and the punishments handed out to the character of Grace, played respectively by Nicole Kidman and Bryce Dallas Howard. Certainly, a brief glance at Von Trier’s private life hints at where his problems stem from. Back in 1995 his mother made a deathbed confession that her late husband was not Von Trier’s biological father. Within a year he divorced his first wife and converted to Catholicism (hitherto believing he was Jewish). 

So what made him see woman as the Antichrist? “I am probably not very religious,” he explains. “It’s very obvious to me that religion is something that’s invented by man. So suddenly I saw that the Antichrist would be the woman because she wouldn’t accept the religion that was so typically manmade.” He’s increasingly come to believe he’s an atheist, he says. “I can’t be honest and say to my children (he has four], ‘There is a God.’ It’s not possible.” He lets out a long sigh. “I think you can say that I’m a pessimist. It’s the only thing that has come out of all these years of therapy.”

It’s there for all to see in Antichrist, a Freudian fairytale that’s arguably saved Von Trier. Did he accomplish what he set out to achieve? “It’s a good question,” he says, “but I don’t know. Because of this mental illness, I was not expecting so much. I was just trying very hard to be there physically and finish the film.” With no idea what his next film will be, I’m left with the impression that he still has a long way to go before he’s better. Certainly, the vitriolic reaction to Antichrist in Cannes has shaken him. No wonder he stops short of saying that filmmaking is always therapeutic. “That would be too easy,” he says. “Then I would be really, really healthy after all these films.” 

• Antichrist is released 24 July www.antichristthemovie.com


http://scotlandonsunday.scotsman.com/sos-review/Lars-Von-Trier-interview-Season.5451263.jp

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Anxiety rising

December 23, 2007 · Leave a Comment

Yesterday was a fairly good day. Managed to go the whole day out shopping. Got a bit disoriented but got through it and recovered and felt OK. Bought a nice jacket and Hackett rugby shirt. Bought a replacement Freeview box for the TV. Got it home; it’s OK but doesn’t give my old-but-good Ferguson TV proper widescreen like the old-but-crap Alba freeview box did. So the Woollies box has to go back.

Later at home I crasged quite early around 9ish. This is bad news as Iwoke up again at 12:30-1am. Watched some TV - stayed for King of The Hill. Went back to bed around 5pm but couldn’t get back to sleep despite getting close. At  the critical point sort of ’started’ awake feeling a bit dizzy/weird. Weird half  asleep thoughts but didn’t drift off. So I got up this am with only a few hours sleep.

Now I have bad stomach nerves anxiety. Pit of the stomach stuff like a tight feeling combined with a bit of lump-in-throat. Quite tense and because of lck of sleep today will be difficult Christmas-shopping wise.

Trip abroad looking doubtful. I had talked myslf round to going with gf but now there is a strike on the 7th Jan (the day we were due to fly back). No real info on what contingency plans will be and it will be worse for me stuck at an airport or having to make decisions when I’m stressed anyway from flying. The 6th is more expensive and the day after might still be disrupted so may cancel the whole thing. Wouldn’t want to travel different day from my gf anyway.

I’m now stuck at that place where I feel shit but I’m not tired enough to go back to sleep for a few hours

and I’m too tired to go out with gf Christmas shopping. She has already gone out and  I’m facing having to take Freeview box back, pick out a present for her (she’s refusing to name anything she wants) and decide if I should go ahead and book flight out anyway knowing return may be a nightmare, I wanted to build up the flying like I didi with getting out throught CBT; journey not against the clock just around tube network to get used to it. So I would want the first flight to be  ahasle-free affair otherwise I;ll just associate flying with stress/panic even more.

Hope this stomach goes away soon. Had quite a few moments of despair over last week and one day of hell a few days ago.

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Escape for Christmas

December 18, 2007 · Leave a Comment

Quick post which I will come back to. GF booked a flight to Scandanavia for the holidays. I am invited as well but am finding it difficult to face the flight. I don’t like flying anyway but especially from Stansted and on a budget flight is claustrophobia hell which could well lead to a panic attack. Last time before the panic attacks started was bad enough, I was tense the whole time. I really want to go for a break from this place but fear that as soon as I book the ticket I will be tense/anxious the whole time and so won’t enjoy the lead up to Christmas. The whole airport anxity thing is made far worse by the shitty time people have at airports in the UK. I’m wondering if we still have the ridiculous clear plastic bag rule. Nothing mentioned on the airline website.

Plus I’ve been feeling faint/dizzy which may or may not be related to the aching pain emanating from my testicles (or specifically left testicle). I hope this is just another anxiety symptom. I’m fearing cancer or a strangulated testicle (which is extremely painful and can result in loss of testicle!) and haven’t ‘examined’ myself yet (something I never do anyway). I’m dreading going to the Dr over this one. He probably already thinks I’m a hypo I’ve been that often recently. However if the aching pain doesn’t go soon I shall be forced to go. I have an appointment with an endocrinologist this week so may discuss it then.

My nerves were getting better but have been coming back, Sleep hygiene dreadful. Sleeping all day. Major work disappointment has sent me into a fug of depression. So I need that holiday.

Oh, and another brown envelope came today, just in time for Christmas! No doubt more shit news.

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