With this last piece of nastiness embarrasing me or attempting to embarass me in front of others I am now absolved of all guilt. I feel relaxed now about consigning the relationshipvto the dustbin. She has committed her last treacherous and disloyal act.

With this last piece of nastiness embarrasing me or attempting to embarass me in front of others I am now absolved of all guilt. I feel relaxed now about consigning the relationshipvto the dustbin. She has committed her last treacherous and disloyal act.
O used to feel obliged to her- guilty that she would be childless. Now I feel no obligation. It’s fallen like a lead shackle, a weight of guilty obligation has been lifted. She will think nothing of this latest episode – and will no doubt expect things to continue as normal . For me however it is the final vent on the temple curtain! I should be gratef to her-she has released me from any sense of duty.

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New home and the first theft

I have been in my new home for 2 weeks. The shower is fantastic and that makes up for the mega small small bathroom and kitchen. The kitchen is tiny but has a great view of the garden complete with bumble bees etc.
Girlfriend insisted on putting little hod carrier outside in front garden patio. The next morning it had been stolen…
I’m pissed off because it’s so useful and I managed to hold onto it for 3 years. In fact in my orevious flat I didn’t have anything stolen in 5 years!
Some cunt of am estate agent put a ‘to let’ sign on the front wall which helped advertise maybe an empty property. Makes me feel shitty about the area – which is supposed to be one of the most expensive areas to live.

The Blackness is circling.

The Blackness is circling.
I had a drink tonight , only 1.5 bottles. However , long wait til get home and flat in grotty condition. Realising life hasn’t worked out .

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When there is no real hope. There seems to be no real hope for the future, just a matter of staving off depression as much as possible.

When there is no real hope.
There seems to be no real hope for the future, just a matter of staving off depression as much as possible.
Most of my career options have passed me by. My personal life doesn’t hold out much possibility for happiness. Age just makes things worse

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Sackable offences

Sackable offences
Today she screamed at me in the street and swore. All because I told her to come my way as I had just passed some ugly woman who almost won X factor. I do t even like the show but she obsessed about it so I thought she d like to see
She ran a few yards then gave up and turned back. When I caught up with her she started swearing . I give up.
She has years of sackable offences . Now I’ve moved to a better flat in a better are perhaps it’s finallly time to get a better girlfriend?

Moving and moving on?

Moving and moving on?
Moving is exhausting and there’s nothing so depressing than standing in the middle of your home in the small hours surrounded by moving detritus and seeing just how much left there is still do…

Alexei Sayle is and was not funny!

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Alexei Sayle was never funny. I never ‘got’ him and think he was just ‘popular’ because he was at the right place at the right (politically correct ‘alternative’ early 80s).

Ross Noble isn’t my cup of tea but at least I can see why people like him, why he is funny (he’s just not for me particularly in the same way I don’t really go for Dylan* (Irish man from Books sitcom)

Jo Brand not funny. Chris Rock VERY funny. Bill Hicks funny and very anti-establishment (funny how he died of ‘cancer’ so young…)

* I will remember his name later