Business and stress

Today the business which has been faltering got a hammer blow. This is a relief in a way because I have been trying to find a way out. It’s been tempting because I don’t have new job enterprise to go to apart from back to graphics.

I’ve realised a few things in the wake of this failure. Maybe I should have got out earlier and this would have left me richer! However the business I was managing  provided a regular income and the possibilityof me taking it over properly. It’s difficult to get a perspective and those you confide in often have a far better insight. You think they haven’t grasped the complexities but you don’t need complexities to see if something is a ‘yay!’ or a ‘nay!’

I blame myself for some things that went wrong but in reality it was a pretty impossible situation. If I had taken over the business earlier with a company of my own then I would be facing mega responsibilities of premises, leases etc.

I can no longer carry on without trying medication for ADD. Many of my shortcomings running the business were directly attributable to ADD (Unable to complete paperwork, procrastination,  poor follow-through) would I have been able to make it succeed if I had been able to concentrate more, to focus, to plan?

There is something that I read on an ADD forum recently that convinces me that I can no longer carry on without trying the ‘meds’ route. I’m not going to find a magic way of organising things – the ADD Holy Grail – that will just be revealed and make it all just so…

Many people with ADD / ADHD have difficulty with working memory. They may have difficulty with recall, focusing, organization, and distinguishing between important and unimportant cues. They may distract easily, become forgetful, or have difficulty getting started on tasks. Lengthy multiple step directions are often frustrating and impossible to follow.

From http://add.about.com/od/researchstudies/a/workingmemory.htm