I am visiting relatives. I have put this off twice (why can’t they visit ME?)
I don’t like traveling but this has been made far worse because of various other factors; I am feeling ‘fragile’ at the moment. Tiredness; I didn’t get any sleep last night.
The usual stress revolves around
- what if I have a panic attack on the train’
- what if I have a panic attack there and want to come home immediately?’
I don’t sleep the night before of course. All my onling friends desert me. Eventually at 6 or 7am I fall asleep. I have to be leaving at 1.30 and set the alarm for 12.15
The train is packed. I sit in a reserved seat expecting to be ousted at any second.
The spaced-outedness (not in a nice way a stressed, confused way) will hopefully ease when I have a proper sleep.
