Elusive Queen Mab

Jesus WordPress is slow, does everyone blog at night?

Anyway I’m up because of an unsuccessful attempt at sleep earlier. I was nodding off in front of the TV watching Following Sean so decided to abandon viewing and make for the bed. Of course as soon as I got into bed I woke up (as is often the case. Got up to do one of my other blogs, put on Nick Drake on Last FM then read some of his life story and got depressed/head dizzy/hot. Must be the reference to clinical depression and suicide. had a terribly night last night. Anxiety attacks which I thought was going to last all night. Reminded me of the first major panic attack which started it all off. Will transcribe the notes I jotted down in the journal. Just a mixture of high anxiety, confusion, queasiness and despair. Kept thinking ‘I will get through this’ but doubting it all the while. Scribbled down this too shall pass as it’s a phrase which has helped before. Te combination of physical symptoms such as nausea and dizziness with mental feelings of despair is a killer. I will add the notes in a different colour so they will stand out as additions.

Find Dimitri From Paris instead and up pops Un woman Paradis which I instantly recognise and takes me back to happier times. My favourite track is probably Une Very Stylish Fille